Stories told,
The veils are torn;
The innocence stains my hands.
The pain’s rise,
The fear divides;
The deep descend of a
Blazing edge…
Over the faceless skin.
The salty smell,
A crimson shade;
Painting the truth in me.
She’s lost,
And her silence sealed;
Into the ancient equilibrium,
Again, I fade.
F.FIRE May 6, 2003
Saturday, October 22, 2005
A dream
I had a strange dream a few nights ago.
It was a 'dream in a dream' situation, I was fully aware that I was dreaming in my dream. I was looking at a simulation of the earth surface's changes throughout the past 100 years or so, but the location and shape of the continents looked very different from what they could have looked like a century ago. And it was a virtual environment simulating the progress, more like a program or a software. Then, the bodies of water started taking over the lands, and suddenly, I was in the middle of the whole thing: extremely powerful streams of water creating monstrous turbulence which was dividing, dying or building more momentum and strength. It was a frightening situation, and before I was taken down by the water, my father woke me up in my sleep, and then I woke up in real.
It was quite intense. I enjoyed it.
It was a 'dream in a dream' situation, I was fully aware that I was dreaming in my dream. I was looking at a simulation of the earth surface's changes throughout the past 100 years or so, but the location and shape of the continents looked very different from what they could have looked like a century ago. And it was a virtual environment simulating the progress, more like a program or a software. Then, the bodies of water started taking over the lands, and suddenly, I was in the middle of the whole thing: extremely powerful streams of water creating monstrous turbulence which was dividing, dying or building more momentum and strength. It was a frightening situation, and before I was taken down by the water, my father woke me up in my sleep, and then I woke up in real.
It was quite intense. I enjoyed it.
Friday, October 14, 2005
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Nature, and how it works
When the eye is at a certain distance from two different objects of any form, shape and size, there is a finite set of different interpretations (the length of the set is dependable on each individual's features, abilities (both physical and "mental") and structure), based on infinitely different angles and points of reference, or in other words, physicals constants of nature. This is a good example of how rules of nature change and alter the way the brain observes and understands the facts of nature.
It could be argued that certain, different groups of the infinite set result in finite groups of the smaller set, through the simple fact that a certain infinite group of the bigger set will most likely correspond to one single interpretation. The infinite structure creates of a very large finite set in mxn ways (n being the length of the infinite set, and m the size of the finite set produced). If this value is larger than a certain limit, or thershold, the set can be considered extremely large, with a behaviour close to the behaviour of an infinite set. It becomes hard to observe, analyze and understand each and every way, hence the lack of the ability to predict and manipulate some of these ways, and their outcomes, leads to a chaotic and dynamic behaviour.
Note on infinite groups and sets: These sets usually consist of infinite elements. The set can be categorized as a "set ranging from negative infinity to positive infinity" or vice versa, based on an infinite number of ways (technically, n - 1 ways, however, if n is very large, they are very close), as a result of containing infinite elements. The nature of these infinite sets create a large number of ways to simplify the rules and equations of nature.
This does not really leave much for proving how deterministic, formulatic, and very materialistic the human brain, this complex-looking piece of soft and gentle live tissue which has been a source for thousands of years of misery, suffering, brilliance, defiance, worship, and fascination throughout the history of the world, functions. One more fact to remember.
Now playing: Vivaldi - Sabat Mater/Salve Regina
It could be argued that certain, different groups of the infinite set result in finite groups of the smaller set, through the simple fact that a certain infinite group of the bigger set will most likely correspond to one single interpretation. The infinite structure creates of a very large finite set in mxn ways (n being the length of the infinite set, and m the size of the finite set produced). If this value is larger than a certain limit, or thershold, the set can be considered extremely large, with a behaviour close to the behaviour of an infinite set. It becomes hard to observe, analyze and understand each and every way, hence the lack of the ability to predict and manipulate some of these ways, and their outcomes, leads to a chaotic and dynamic behaviour.
Note on infinite groups and sets: These sets usually consist of infinite elements. The set can be categorized as a "set ranging from negative infinity to positive infinity" or vice versa, based on an infinite number of ways (technically, n - 1 ways, however, if n is very large, they are very close), as a result of containing infinite elements. The nature of these infinite sets create a large number of ways to simplify the rules and equations of nature.
This does not really leave much for proving how deterministic, formulatic, and very materialistic the human brain, this complex-looking piece of soft and gentle live tissue which has been a source for thousands of years of misery, suffering, brilliance, defiance, worship, and fascination throughout the history of the world, functions. One more fact to remember.
Now playing: Vivaldi - Sabat Mater/Salve Regina
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Quantification
Actions, choices, thoughts and behaviour are the pre-determined initial conditions in a dynamic network with a fractal structure. There are infinite scales, infinite possibilities for initial conditions (hence, completely random transfer methods), and infinite outcomes. This very system described is of a fractal nature, therefore, it repeats on infinite scales (scientifically, socially, universally, etc.).
Chaos and determinism create order. This is an equation set, or matrix, of differential equations of order n, in an nxn space. The irregulaity, i.e. order, produced is highly unstable. In other words, a slightly (used very loosely) change in the set of the initial conditions has the potential of creating a very large blow to the outcome. Hence, the chaotic nature of the order. This is also noticed in the nature of the exponentially-increasing mathematical functions. The concept of a function approaching negative infinity can be shown by a system driving towards its doom (total instability, pure chaos). A system starting off from total instability can be used to show the idea of a function approaching positive infinity. It could also be said that these two systems follow a periodic pattern, falling to doom, and rising from chaos. Or in the mathematical terms, exponentially increasing to both ends of the spectrum, with a period of one.
This function also holds true on infinite scales, creating another network of fractal structure. All these different scales produce infinite frames of reference, or infinite origins.
Chaos and determinism create order. This is an equation set, or matrix, of differential equations of order n, in an nxn space. The irregulaity, i.e. order, produced is highly unstable. In other words, a slightly (used very loosely) change in the set of the initial conditions has the potential of creating a very large blow to the outcome. Hence, the chaotic nature of the order. This is also noticed in the nature of the exponentially-increasing mathematical functions. The concept of a function approaching negative infinity can be shown by a system driving towards its doom (total instability, pure chaos). A system starting off from total instability can be used to show the idea of a function approaching positive infinity. It could also be said that these two systems follow a periodic pattern, falling to doom, and rising from chaos. Or in the mathematical terms, exponentially increasing to both ends of the spectrum, with a period of one.
This function also holds true on infinite scales, creating another network of fractal structure. All these different scales produce infinite frames of reference, or infinite origins.
Sunday, October 02, 2005
Subject? SUBJECT?! I didn't think about that part.
If I were comfortable enough about myself, if my knowledge about myself was close to perfect, I could stop worrying about my "issues" and problems; I could play little attention to myself , and start to look at the other people around me.
I stepped aside and looked back inside. It was an interesting view, I might add. My curiosity started the investigations. That's how I liked to call them, and well, it was definitely a suitable term.
I'd study the personalities and the patterns in which they behaved. Quite a diverse set of information, a nice and neat combination of "initial conditions, the transfer function (or the pattern), and the outcome(s)".
It was a fulfilling exercise, and the skill was rather handy.
I stepped aside and looked back inside. It was an interesting view, I might add. My curiosity started the investigations. That's how I liked to call them, and well, it was definitely a suitable term.
I'd study the personalities and the patterns in which they behaved. Quite a diverse set of information, a nice and neat combination of "initial conditions, the transfer function (or the pattern), and the outcome(s)".
It was a fulfilling exercise, and the skill was rather handy.
***
Intensity is only felt in the presence of heat. Intensity flows, it creates motion and rhythm.
Magic is the art, and science, of understanding a large set of factors and causes, and predicting, or trying to influence, the outcomes and effects.
Some of us have grown so tolerable of irrational behaviour among pets, the "home" animals. Yet sometimes, our responses and reactions towards fellow humans show a complete lack of sympathy for irrationality within the race of intelligent animals.
- The girl in this novel seriously reminds me of you. I mean, I could totally imagine you doing all those things. Pretty crazy!
He knew how to make me feel comfortable by acting so knowledgable of me. I can't say I have ever experienced anything like it. He knew me so well that he didn't have to impress me. He didn't have to risk anything. Well, maybe he did, but not if he didn't feel confident about it. He knew which buttons to push, which strings to pull. Yet I felt so free and weightless in his presence.
I put behind the unnecessary hostility, and direct my anger towards the true causes and origins, which have always laid deep within man's simplest, most basic feelings, desires and needs.
We always expect other people around us to be perfect. We influence and manipulate others, because we believe we have the power to do so, even though, we're on a lower level on the "perfection curve".
Metal: A Headbanger's Journey
I saw this movie last night. It was one of the best documentaries I have ever seen. But then, I can't say I have seen that many movies from this genre, so that might sound a bit ignorant.
It was very well-made, each and every interview was almost a classic, it covered many areas, and the fact that almost all the musicians (probably except the guys in Slipknot and Korn) sounded quite intelligent was rather refreshing. I also loved Dio's shot at Gene Simmons. Right on, Ron!
If you like arts, try to find a chance to see the movie. Even non-metal fans should enjoy it.
It's also put me in a mode to listen to lots of metal. I wanted to listen to Emperor's In The Nightside Eclipse, at first, but then decided to listen to something I hadn't listened to in a long time. So, I picked Sepultura's Arise.
Man, those ad's before the start of the movie were fucking hilarious.
It was very well-made, each and every interview was almost a classic, it covered many areas, and the fact that almost all the musicians (probably except the guys in Slipknot and Korn) sounded quite intelligent was rather refreshing. I also loved Dio's shot at Gene Simmons. Right on, Ron!
If you like arts, try to find a chance to see the movie. Even non-metal fans should enjoy it.
It's also put me in a mode to listen to lots of metal. I wanted to listen to Emperor's In The Nightside Eclipse, at first, but then decided to listen to something I hadn't listened to in a long time. So, I picked Sepultura's Arise.
Man, those ad's before the start of the movie were fucking hilarious.
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